Beauty is exhausting and rejuvenating

"Sometimes there is so much beauty in the world that I can't take it, it feels like my heart is going to cave in."  -From American Beauty. Here I sit on a subway traveling from the east side of central park in Manhattan over to Brooklyn.  People coming and going at each stop for the New Yorker, this is a par of the rhythm of everyday life, but for me an outsider, which in itself is a phenomenon worth studying, I am overwhelmed.  I am overwhelmed, because at this present time I am hearing stories of a close friend, one I consider to be like a brother, that I had never heard that go deep into his past and soul.  I am opened up to a world beyond my self and that is a beautiful phenomenon, to sit and listen to someone else, listen and be, for someone else it is an annihilation of ones ego seeing the world beyond, you!  And almost in the same moment that this new world is opened to me, when my walls of pride are dropped it hits me like a kick to the chest, "What about them?"  All the people on and off the subway walking past me "what about them" there is so much life, beauty, everywhere all around it brings me to my knees in awe and reverence, it is exhausting and rejuvenating.