Humans Being

Humans Being

I often find myself doing.  Doing homework, doing life, and if I am in the process of not doing much I sure as hell am thinking about doing much.  It's exhausting and distracting where is the life in always striving to do things?  When can rest ever come if I am always conforming to the pressure to do?  Some say, "there isn't rest, not until your dead, so do all you can now."  Do so much that when you get to that point you can do more.  I've been wrestling with this idea of doing and being learning the difference between laziness and being, and learning the difference between working hard using your body and mind the way it was designed and doing in a striving/vain manner.  I am learning to recognize the difference between working hard in a place of being and doing from a place of striving, and one of those indicators is my encounter with beauty!  I find it most difficult, near impossible, to admire, let alone encounter, beauty when I am distracted by doing things in a striving manner.  It's as if I am totally zoned out just moving through life without any recognition of everything happening around me I am so driven by pride and vain efforts towards some thing that I think is worth it.  This reminds me of Martin Buber's discussion on the relationships between people and people/things "I and Thou vs. I and It" "I, It" is a perfect demonstration of the effect of someone who is doing in a striving manner, never present always seeing the relationship as a means to the striving persons end.  However, when being, there is a total and complete presence which opens an individuals eyes to beauty and encounters with beauty.  This next thought however, is somewhat contradictory to what I was saying, but Beauty calls us into being it demands all in that moment whatever we had fixed on our mind, whatever we were doing it ceases for the overcoming power of Beauty.  It is an interesting paradox how there is a need for one to reside in a place of being in order to be opened to beauty or Beauty, and yet the idea that it does not matter if a person is in a place of being or doing, that one can get derailed from their vain efforts of doing by Beauty.  Both equally call us to back to our nature the place we were designed to live from, Humans Being not Humans doing.